2 things on the journey.

Photo by my amazing friend Megan on our trip to Cumberland Island Georgia.

I cannot figure out how to start this post. I keep typing and erasing. I have something so deep to share that it is so hard to know where to start. In my steps towards growth and change there are a couple of big things I am working on. One is to have my heart so open and full of love for everyone that I stop making judgements about people. I think most people would say I am a pretty open and non-judgemental person but I feel like I have spent a lot of time getting irritated by people and saying how I just can't understand. The truth is that no one really needs to understand why anyone else does something. We can never truly know what is inside anyone else. We are all our own people on our own journey's. I had a conversation with a friend the other day and I remember saying that one thing that is really hitting me lately is that we can never really know everything about a person. We only know them from our relationship with them. We know our parents, friends, lovers, children from that relationship with them. Our parents are our parents and because of that relationship, I believe that no matter what we really can only see a small part of who they are. I hope that at least someone is following my train of thought. Anywoo, so on my journey to open my heart more and only feel love and openness to everyone, I am making a ton of progress. My days of chanting and being held in the womb of Omega really helped that. My heart feels open and I feel these very gentle and very powerful shifts taking place in me. I see more clearly how we are all exactly where we need to be at every moment and we are perfect.

The other big thing I am working on is to feel loved and protected by the Universe or God. To really know deep inside me that everything is fine and that I am safe. I have never felt that way. I feel like there is always this tension in my body that is waiting for the next bad thing to happen. That is how my life was for so long that it seems to have been so ingrained that it is hard to let go of. I want to really be able to lean with all of me into the amazing stream of love that is available to all of us and feel totally loved and supported. I think that is what I love about water. I love that if you can relax your body totally that you are supported and can just float. That is really how I want to live my life. That doesn't mean I don't believe in working hard. It means that I really believe that if you can just relax and trust that amazing things will happen. If only I found that easier to do. I am working towards that in this endless stage of growth and change. Boy life really is beautiful!