Plans to hit the road!!

I am making some very exciting plans to do a bit of a working road trip starting sometime in May or June. I am heading south. I will be doing some acupuncture, private yoga instruction, cooking and food prep and education, and basically helping some people make some healthier shifts in their lives. I am super excited! This is what I really want to do. I want to help people with the roots of illness not treating the illness only. More info to come but I have some big plans.
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Kripalu: That's a lot of people..

I guess I should write a little about Kripalu. I am having a bit of a problem though.....I don't feel like putting it into words. Not a good thing for someone trying to keep a blog going or someone who psychic after psychic after astrologer (yeah I run into a lot of them in my life) say is going to do a lot of her work from writing and teaching people. Anyhoo, I will try.

We started off with 65 people but ended with 62. It was intense. The days were long. We did hours and hours of yoga everyday. I didn't sleep nearly enough. It feels like I have undone the many years of trying to build myself up after years of starving myself and over exercising. I am wiped out. My pulses are no longer palpable just the way they were when I started acupuncture school. I am hoping that after a couple weeks of rest that improves. I learned a lot about myself. I realized how much work I have done. I know I couldn't have survived it even a year ago. I learned that while for many it may have been about finding their edge and pushing their bodies it could not be for me. That had to be part of the equation for me but really it was about letting the ego go, about modifying and taking it easier on my body then I really had to. I know how to push an edge. I know how to push my body to the place of complete collapse and almost death. I had to learn how to not take myself to that edge or maybe to take myself there and not past it. Kripalu means compassion and my intention at this yoga teacher training was about finding compassion for myself. I found a little bit of that. More compassion than ever before so that's a victory.

The people at Kripalu were amazing, as were the teachers. That was my favorite part. Such beautiful people all making their way through life as best they can. The love in the air was palpable. I will never forget many of them. To feel so comfortable with so many people after only a month of knowing them, is amazing. It says a lot about Kripalu and the way that they set up the YTT.

Now is the time for me to figure out what's next. I don't know at this point. Hopefully I will know soon. For now I am recovering, sleeping, cooking, snuggling with my animals, working and still doing yoga. Ah yoga, I love you so.

Home from Kripalu..

(I found these few pics on my computer. I was in 3 different rooms while at Kripalu. One was a dorm and then 2 were shared rooms. The shared rooms were both with the same roommate but we had to move. Oh well.)

Seriously the longest and shortest month of my entire life. I have so much to say but not sure what that is yet. I will be back with more info. I need to figure my life out. Where to move? At least I know more now about what I want my work life to be life. I am actually thinking about MIami for a variety of reasons. I just think it could be a little intense for me. We will see. I will be back very soon!

love to you all!!!!!

Kripalu

I will add some pics soon but wanted to do a little update. At this point I honestly wish I hadn't come but I know I am supposed to be here. There a couple major snorers in my dorm room so I didn't sleep at all. Everything always feels so much worse when you haven't slept. I am sure things will feel a lot better in a couple days. I am praying for that. Wish I had something more positive to report but I am being real.

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Being present.

This has been on my mind a lot lately. My yoga and meditation practices have greatly helped me to actually be able to do this. I started meditating almost 10 years ago. It has been a daily practice this entire time. That is so amazing to think about. I am still a daydreamer but I notice every day how much more aware I become to all that is going on around me. While driving I do not mindlessly turn the wrong way because that is the way I most often go. I used to do that all the time. I am aware of how I am feeling and really allow myself to feel it. Some really horrible, yucky, icky, awful stuff has been coming up for me lately but I am able to be present with it and not try to escape. I know it will pass. It takes a lot of work to get the point where we can be more present in our lives for both ourselves and those around us. The only advice, if you even care, that I can give is to take a few quiet moments for yourself everyday. Roll out a mat or simply sit however you are comfortable and breath. A daily yoga and/ or meditation practice will change your life. If you only have a few minutes, that's ok. It is one of the most important things you can do. Yep, I really want to teach this stuff. It's AMAZING!!

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Oddly...

It's not nearly as cold here as it could be. This morning it was 12 degrees when I woke up. I am not complaining about the cold though because it is keeping the snow south of here. Thank goodness!! Maybe it's the weather but I have been in a bit of a funk the past few days. Some really deep stuff is coming up for me. Most of it is body image issues and it is pretty miserable. I am hoping it the last of some stuff I have been dealing with for years and that it will be gone soon. It has me not looking forward to my yoga teacher training. It had better leave soon. I will just keep doing my yoga practice and hope that pushes it out. I have been working on a much longer post about all of this but I am just not ready to put it all out there.

Enough already!

I am so tired of the weather here. There has been snow on the ground for months. There is now a coating of ice covering the snow. The dogs slip and fall down repeatedly. They need some yak traks just like mine.