Hello Megan...

Yeah, you! For anyone else reading bear with me. I tried my very best to get my camera working so I can take some pics. The battery doesn't charge at all at this point. I really will go get a new battery sometime soon. I agree that my blog will be much better when I can add pics again one day.

xoxo

Trust and the power of yoga.

Everyday as I lower my body onto my mat and try to quiet my mind I am again reminded of how powerful the practice of yoga is. I notice how much it is helping me to clear things my body has long held onto. Things that no amount of acupuncture, massage, therapy, shamanic work and numerous other things have been able to totally clear. I notice how much is held in my hips and lower back. It holds things like fear, distrust and unworthiness. Things that I am ready to let go. It is such an amazing, powerful practice and I am so grateful for it and so excited about my teacher training starting next month.

Gifts...

Sometimes gifts come from the most surprising places. I feel so blessed to have spent the last couple years really processing all my "stuff". I have been able to really see where some of my issues have come from. So many of them aren't mine. They come from my parents and their parents and on and on. I am able to see what isn't mine, what isn't important to me, and who I do not want to be. I only need to be myself and because of all this work I now know even more about who I am. Who cares what anyone else thinks. A little perspective is such a huge gift. Thank you!

Exhausted...

Yep, that's me I am totally wiped out. I am not entirely sure why. Maybe some of it came from dealing with family over the holidays. It takes a lot of energy to protect myself from all the emotional terrain of those around me. I was trying to save money and not order new vitamins. I guess I really do need them to keep me going. Maybe some of the fatigue comes from all the releasing I am doing from yet another increase in yoga. I am so nervous about not being well enough prepared for yoga teacher training or from injuring myself by increasing too fast that I now do 2 hours of yoga a day. Every night my body aches. It isn't typical sore muscles. It's more like that achy feeling that you get from the flu but I do not have the flu. I am merely clearing a whole new level of "stuff" my body is holding.
So for today along with my yoga and my studying Chinese herbs I will sit on the couch, watching the food network and crocheting a baby blanket. That sounds lovely. I better go get a bowl of soup and a cup of tea to go along with that. Yes, that will be just wonderful!! I know that my life is going to get a whole lot busier after I return from Kripalu so for now I will be grateful for the lighter work load and the free time it leaves.

xoxo

Krishna Das - Om Namo Bhagavate / Narayana / For Your Love - New York No...

Mirrors.

I think I have written a little about this topic before on this blog but I have to do it again. I was reading this blog this morning. In it Christine was talking about some judgement coming her way because of her choices.

The thing is that when people are critical of our choices it is because for some reason we are mirroring back at them their issues. Judgement really has nothing to do with the person being judged. It has more to do with people doing the judging. People spend a lot of time looking at other people's lives to avoid looking at their own. Judgement becomes an addiction like any other. All are things people use to avoid looking at their own issues. Many people have another drink, get high, have sex with a stranger, go shopping or just look at everyone else's life in order to avoid looking at our own lives.

I personally refuse to have my feelings hurt by people who I don't know or who chose to live a different kind of life. We are all unique individuals who make different choices and that is ok. The world would be so boring if everyone was the same.

Come on everyone..join me...let's be nice to each other. Let's be accepting of everyone's differences. Diversity is a beautiful thing!!

xoxo

Horoscope

I love Rob Brezsny!! He does amazing horoscopes. This is mine for this week and I guess sort of the year as a whole. I love it. Check yours out!!



"A man may fulfill the object of his existence by asking a question he cannot answer, and attempting a task he cannot achieve," mused 19th-century author Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr. Advice that wild could just as well have been dispensed by a feral saint living in a cave in the woods. And now I'm passing it on to you, Aries, just in time for the beginning of what may be your wildest year in a decade. In my astrological opinion, you are ready to be a connoisseur of mysteries that purify the mind and nurture the soul . . . a daredevil of the spirit in quest of seemingly impossible dreams . . . a fierce adept of the wisdom of uncertainty who's in love with unpredictable teachings.

Fun things I want to do in 2011.

I am adding another two words for 2011. Why would I only need to make one? I can have as many as I want. We all can. So I am adding LOVE and FUN! How do I plan on accomplishing these? Here are some ideas....

-more knitting
-make at least one quilt
-work on my hooping
-continue to do daily yoga
-move out of NY to a place that feels better to me
-continue to develop my own sense of style when it comes to what I wear and how I decorate my surroundings
-be happier with my body
-get out and meet more people
-develop this blog more so it has more style and looks more "me"
-make a more sustainable income for myself and start building more of a financial foundation that is totally authentic for myself
-improve all my relationships that need to be better and let those go that aren't and cannot be healed
-be more patient
-develop a stronger sense of inner calm

That is all I can think of for the moment. I am sure I will come up with more.

Trust.

I have noticed that a lot of people are talking about their words for 2011. That got me thinking about what I want my word for 2011 to be. Mine is trust. I am going to trust that I am exactly where I need to be. I will trust that I am enough. I trust that I will be supported and loved by the Universe as a whole. I am trusting that amazing things will happen this year.

What is your word?

Happy New Year!

I have an amazing feeling about this year! I don't make resolutions at this time of year too much. I try to live my life in the moment. I make resolutions on a daily basis, not on a yearly one. But.....that being said I do have a title for this year. It is THE YEAR OF BEING MYSELF, SAYING WHAT I THINK OR BELIEVE AND NOT CARING IF PEOPLE THINK I'M A FREAK.