Travel and forward motion.

I have been feeling the need to travel lately. I have some amazing ideas as to how to do this. I am more excited about my ideas than about anything over the last few years. There seems to be some interesting energy in the air lately that has really been helping people move forward. It is amazing but everyone that I talk to has been having a lot of aha moments and finally making much needed changes in their lives. It all goes to show that when we all breathe deeply and connect to our spirits we can hear the voices guiding us forward. They begin as the softest of whispers and get louder and louder as we learn how to tune into them. Ah, this world and this life are truly amazing!

Long road.

One of the ones I like to hang out with when I am feeling a bit reclusive.


I know I haven't been here much. There has been a lot going on. As soon as I think I know what way I am going something changes. I feel weird putting too much of that stuff out here. Not that many people read it probably... I am dealing with the loss of my cat Smokey. I know he is around but I can't pet and an snuggle with him so that still makes me sad. I am trying to feel where my next move is. It will be here soon. For now I just breathe and I will know that next step when the time is right. For now journaling for myself feels better but that may very well change.

xoxo

Magic.

I seems that simultaneously there is nothing going on and and there is everything. Maybe a little explanation would be helpful? My plans to be in Georgia for a big chunk this summer have fallen through, or at least at this point they have. With one cat sick with cancer and now another with possible cystitis and months before I can actually reinstate my GA acupuncture license, I am stuck for awhile. Ugh, NY...sometimes I feel that if I don't get out of here that I will lose my mind. It is so aggressive. I want to feel totally comfortable going out and being social but around here almost anything is just too overwhelming for me.

Sometimes I feel as if I am stuck in quicksand. The more I struggle the more it pulls me under. I try to give up the struggle and hopefully free myself from the things that have been holding me back. I wonder if it is not time for me to move forward in the way I thought that I would. I feel like there is magic waiting right under the surface just waiting for something....what that is I do not know. Sometimes I feel like I just need to breathe and let something go and the magic will be right there. I will find out that it has been there all the time and I just haven't seen it. Maybe it's that way with us all. We have been so busy with the struggle that we have all been adapting to over many many years that we can't see all the beauty that is there. Maybe all we really have to do is breathe and to love and to feel the magic that is there for us all.

xoxo

Ugh.

That's the only title I can come up with. It's been one thing after another in the past week. Today I found out my 12 year old cat has cancer. The energy healings are going to be multiplied but I am not putting him through anything painful. For now he is eating and wants attention but he has lost a ton of weight. It's a sad day.

Procrastination.

I may already have a post with the same name. I am too lazy to look back. I have been putting off studying for the Chinese herbal national exam to upgrade my national licensure from Acupuncture to Oriental Medicine. Now I really have to do it so I am studying like crazy. I take the test in 6 days. I have a cat free zone on my study table. It composes just of the book and the paper I am writing one. They don't listen and are constantly invading. Smokey and Benny are the worst offenders.

Loves.....

Love this and pretty much everything she makes, like this....these.

I adore bloomers but not sure I wouldn't feel ridiculous wearing them. Check out and these., these

Hmm, how about these. Noticing a theme here?

I also love these but not so sure I wouldn't feel ridiculous. Hmm, another theme. :)

This company is amazing.....yarns, patterns and all.

I bought some fabric from them. I bought their posh pants a few months ago. They don't fit me perfectly. The rise feels a little low or maybe they are a little big in the waist but they just feel like they are going to fall down. So many people love them and I feel awful that I do not. They are a great company though and their material is wonderful. I think I will try their skirts because rise is not so important.

So anyway, I am getting inspiration and then will make up my own pants pattern to use with my fabric. I also have some organic cotton that I am going to use to make a wrap skirt. Yep, I like clothes that I can bust into a warrior or down dog in a second. I hate jeans and anything tight. i guess it's good that I'm a yoga teacher. :)

Wisdom

Arjun, at the end of the world,
all living things get lost in Me
and then at the beginning of the word
everything is born again.
Nature begins again and the world becomes alive.

A great wheel makes the wrld turn round
and round
and it makes the world get lost in God
and get born again.

The world disappears and reappears like this
many times
because I want it to.

--Bhagavad Gita